Unsolved Case

I cannot win this case in front of me
There is no room for a new deal
My brain dictates emotionless
But love pounds in my heart without a rest

I throw up everytime I try to decide
While both ways retain no trace of light
I cannot cut myself free from her grace
But I must forget the Features of her face

I have to separate my thaughts from her soul
Even if it leaves my mind brittle and cold
It will destroy whatever my ghost holds value
Will it be enough for things in life to accrue

This leaves me with an absurd idea
To the other plans not quite as clear
But bound to perverted hope of mine
That my feelings could be mirrowed in some other point of time